Wicca Amy

amy_madison @ 2003-09-05T15:35:00

2003-09-05T19:52:07Z

So this whole Big Foot thing is really annoying. Everyone has some little story about them thinking they saw the Big Bad, but no one's been able to give us any confirmation yet. It's like an alien sighting that no one really believes.

Until last night that is...

Nick and I were...in our tent. *cough* When we here screaming. So we ran out and Dawn was standing there screaming, wanting us to follow her. So we ran into the woods where we found Buffy...hanging upside down from a tree. We stopped quickly and we all started laughing.

Until...Dawn screamed again.

And oh yes, there was BigFoot, standing behind us. We screamed and ran the other way until we thought we'd lost them. Nick and I stayed together and after a little while we lost all the others. Needless to say, BigFoot most certainly IS real, and there is no mistaking that anymore. We all saw it, we all believe it.

Camping...

2003-07-28T16:25:23Z

I never realized camping could be such a dramatic mess! Faith already got punched because Buffy found out about her and Xander, Faith and Callie are fighting, Dawn's still mad at Buffy because of the whole Kennedy thing, everyone's a little weird around Angel because of the whole big bad thing that happened so recently, and etc...etc...

It's pretty much a big mess.

Even Nick's not having a good time, and he's a really easy going guy. He doesn't really know anyone execpt Xander, but that's a little...off...since Xander had amnesia and only knows Nick because we said he did. We could tell him all kinds of things that never happened and he'd have to believe them, because what else would he do? It's really strange.

I did have a talk with Willow, and I suggested something to her. It was last night after most everyone had gone to bed. Nick wasn't feeling well, so he turned in early, and Tara was settling Katie down.

"Will? Can we talk?"

"Sure, Amy."

We walked a little ways into the woods, but not too far. I didn't want to get lost and neither did she, obviously.

"I was thinking. About Xander. Do you think it's possible we could do a spell...a totally safe one and we'd research it really well and everything...to restore his memory?"

"Uh..." She looked away and I could tell she was nervous. "I don't know, Amy. That's like, messing with...way higher power. I mean, if something went wrong, I don't know if I could forgive myself."

"No, I know what you mean. We wouldn't do it unless we were sure that it would work, and we'd make sure Xander was in on it, you know...everything."

"I still don't..."

"Don't worry about it now. It's totally just a thought. We don't have to rush anything."

I felt bad for sort of backing her into a corner like that. I just got the idea in my head, and I wanted to tell her before I exploded. I have no idea if it's something that would work, because I don't know any of the details of what happened to Xand, but it would be nice for him to remember me BEFORE, and not just what people tell him about me now. Selfish, maybe. But I won't let it stop me.

We'll fix Xander. If it's the last thing I do.

-Aims

amy_madison @ 2003-07-21T08:19:00

2003-07-21T12:25:52Z

So, we're going camping. I'm not really sure who's idea it was, but I'm not complaining. It sounds like a lot of fun, and I'm excited to go somewhere with the gang. I've missed them, I really have. Buffy and I had gotten closer before I left, and I had always felt a connection with Willow; it was good to be back.

I do miss some people, though. Gunn was cool, and Faith and I always had fun partying it up. It goes without saying I miss Riley, and Tiana is MIA, so I guess I just have to deal.

My job search isn't going well. Everytime I come to Sunnydale, I can never find a job. I'd be embarrassed if I went up to Xand and begged him for a job, but I don't think he has an opening anyway. Anya and I never got along very well, and now that she's all demon-y, I don't think I'll bet getting a job there. I guess I'll just have to wait it out.

I decided to go see my dad yesterday, and it went well, I think.

I walked up the driveway and knocked carefully on the door. It had been a while since I'd seen him, and I didn't tell him I was leaving either.

"Aim?" He opened the door and looked me up and down, wondering if it was really me.

"Yeah, it's me, dad."

We talked, and caught up, and then all of a sudden I heard the front door open, and "Honey, I'm home." I looked back at dad and he looked at me sheepishly. "Oh, I got married, too." He said, and I just had to laugh.

Michelle is a lawyer, very determined, and very pleasant, but not sick-y sweet. She introduced herself to me, and said she recognized me from pictures and was happy to meet me. If I felt I owed anything to my mother, I would've been pissed at dad for remarrying - typical thing for the daughter to do, but I wasn't at all. Dad deserved someone, and I was psyched it was someone as beautiful and determined as Michelle.

So, I left. Feeling better than I had in months. Things in my life are going really good. Now if I could only get a job...

Back in good 'ol Sunnydale.

2003-07-16T14:29:38Z

It's hard to be back here in Sunnydale, because I really am not sure what to do with myself. I used to patrol with Tiana and Riley, but I can't do that anymore. I would've been extremely lonely if I didn't have Nick, but he had found a job working construction with Xander again, and I still had no luck. Xander had hired a new secretary since I'd been gone, and he didn't need any help.

So I decided to take a ride over to Buffy's, and see who was around. I knocked on the door, and at first no one answered. But a few seconds later, the tear-streaked face of Dawn appeared.

"Hey, Dawn." I didn't know what her reaction would be. I was a little worried she might have something against me, for Willow, and basically everything...

"Oh. Amy. Hi." She sounded very disappointed, but I didn't take it to heart because I'm sure she was expecting someone else.

"Can I come in?"

"Yeah." She moved aside to let me in.

"Anyone else home?" I asked, and she nodded yes.

"Buffybot and Xanderbot are...out back? I think." She just kind of stood there with her arms crossed across her chest, and I felt horrible. She was obviously very upset about something, but I didn't know if it was my place to ask what.

"Dawn, what's wro--"

She cut me off.

"Oh Amy!" She started sobbing and threw herself into my arms. "It's so horrible!" She then proceeded to tell me the whole long, sordid story of how she was in love with Kennedy, or at least she thought she was, and how Buffy didn't understand, and had yelled at her, and how much she hated Buffy for ruining her life, and then to top it all off, she can't find Kennedy anywhere, and she thinks she ran away. On, and on she went, and I was worried she wasn't making time to breathe.

I led her over to the couch, and told her to take a deep breath. When she finally did, I was a bit confused. "Who's Kennedy?"

"A potential."

"She has potential? I don't get it..."

Dawn smirked slightly through her tears. "A potential slayer."

"Oh. Uh, okay." I was still confused, but I decided to not worry about it. "Is there anything I can do?"

She sighed. "No." Then her eyes lit up. "Actually, there is! Why didn't I think of this before?!"

"Whaaaa...?"

"A locator spell!" She jumped up. "You can do it to find Kennedy!"

"Oh, Dawn...I don't know. I only do majick for good stuff."

"This is good! Kennedy could be in real danger!" Her eyes begged me, and I didn't know what to say. If Buffy knew about this, I had a feeling she wouldn't be too happy.

So I'm back in Sunnydale for a little over a week, and I'm already over my head in trouble.

Good one, Amy.

Back!

2003-07-13T16:25:42Z

Uh...whoa?

This is all just too weird. But the really weird part, is that it isn't weird at all. It's exactly the same as when I left, meaning it's not the same at all. Anyone understand that?

Yeah, so I left. I'm sorry I didn't tell anyone I was leaving, but I'm not really sure anyone cared. I messed things up with Willow, and Tara. I never should have gotten involved with Rack, all things I know now but I didn't know then.

All it took was an extremely handsome guy to pull me out of my little funk. Nick has been my lifesaver, and that is literally. We decided we needed to get away from the hellmouth. We went to Cancun for a little vacation, and it turned into a whole lot more than that. We were there for a little over a month when Nick proposed to me. We had a small wedding, with just a few of the locals there, and another couple we had met who were vacationing as well. It was nice, and very much what I needed. I needed time away with him.

But things were just...too good. Everything seemed so perfect down there, and I couldn't help but think of all the people I had left back here. Buffy fighting demons and everyone helping her. I felt selfish knowing all the things I did and running away from them. So here I am. Back. And married.

Anyone miss me?

The second I got here I was asked to help de-posess Tara and Willow's daughter. Boy, just like old times. Except I am dark-majick free. And I'm here to help the good guys.

Things have changed...like Xander? Amnesia? Dawn...she grew right up! I haven't seen Faith, Giles, or Anya anywhere. I don't really know what their stories are. Someone fill me in on what's been going on around here! Please?!

-Aims

Willow/Dawn

2002-12-30T13:39:40Z

I just got off the phone with Willow.

She's pissed, to say the least.

Apparently Tara and Callie kissed.

I don't know all the details because I haven't talked to either Callie or Tara, sp I can only relate to how Willow feels right now. I've been on her end...actually, when she and Oz kissed. But now that I'm with Nick, that part of my life doesn't matter anymore.

I didn't know what to say to Willow. She hasn't been the best of friends to me lately, so when I tried to comfort her, it just felt sort of weird. We eneded up just ending the conversation pretty quickly.

And Dawn...poor kid! She was in a car accident with Spike. I never liked the guy, and I still don't now that he's all human. He just gives me a bad feeling, and being a wiccan? I think my bad feelings have some sort of leverage in situations like this.

She's okay, though. She woke up, and she's not unconcious anymore. She seems to be doing pretty well. Nick and I went to visit her in the hospital and she was in pretty good spirits.

Sometimes, I just don't know about things around here...

-Aims

RIP Riley

2002-12-09T16:42:59Z

Goddess Riley's funeral was hell. I didn't think I was going to make it, and I probably wouldn't have if it hadn't been for Tiana, Buffy and Nick. Those three helped me stay in one piece, although I was broken inside. It was a beautiful ceremony, as beautiful as a funeral can be. Riley's family was on one side of his grave, and all of his friends were on the other. After the ceremony I walked over to an older woman who was crying, and there was a man with his arm around her.

"You must be Riley's mother," I said.

She just nodded.

"I'm Amy. I was a...friend...of his."

She nodded again, and I understood that she couldn't talk, because she was crying too hard. The man with her shook my hand and told me he was Riley's step-father. Then he thanked me for coming. I gave them my condolences, and then moved on. It was just too hard. Nick came over and wrapped me in a big hug. I buried my face in his jacket and started to cry all over again. His mother looked so sad, I just couldn't believe it. It was too hard...

It still hurts now, but I've at least been able to talk about it. Tiana told me about how she's been talking to the "other" Riley, and asked me if I would like to do the same. I told her no, that it would just hurt too much, and besides, I had never met him. She just nodded. She's been a real trooper through all of this, and I've really admired her.

I just haven't been able to function very well the past few days. It's nice to have Nick and Xander to work with. They've really been a big help, but it's still hard. I wasn't as close to Riley as Buffy or Tiana, but I considered him one of my good friends, and it hurts a lot still. It's going to be a while before I'm over this. *sigh*

I need to get back to work. I just felt the need to update everyone on the life of Amy. I'm sure you were all dying to know what was going on...lol.

-Aims

Back to being....sigh....me.

2002-11-24T13:31:29Z

Oh Goddess.

I can't even begin to explain how good it feels to be in my own body! Being Anya, and then Glory? Not quite as exciting as you might imagine. Just picture this: you're a multi-thousand year old demon who's in love with money and obsessed with orgasms, and then you're a hellgod who worships clothes and shoes and eats people's brains?! Goddess, I could not have gotten switched with worse people.

Nick hasn't spoken to me since I called him right after I was me again. It went something like this:

"Hey, hon. It's me."

"Amy? It's you? For real this time?"

"Yeah, Nick. It's me."

"Ok."

Then there was a couple of minutes of silence and I heard him say...

"Aim..."

And I just about passed out. I knew that tone. I've used that tone. And just as I was about to break down crying, I stopped. And let him have it:

"Look, when we started going out, sure, I lied to you. But it was only because I thought you would run away because my life is...different...than other people's. But I told you. And you were totally weirded out at first, and I understood that. But then you said you were in it for the long haul, that you wouldn't leave no matter how weird it got. You said that! I remember! So don't try and deny it. And I know it got weird these past few weeks...really weird, but how can you leave me when I'm in the worst state of mind I could possibly be in...considering I LOST MY BODY...TWICE!!"

I started to cry uncontrollably. Yeah, I know, way to go Amy. But I couldn't help it. I mean, Nick has always been there for me. Since we've been together anyway.

"Amy...I was just gonna ask if you want to come over."

"Oh." I felt like an ass.

"But if you're that insecure about our relationship, I think we need to take a break." And he hung up.

Ooooooo...if I was still Anya right now!!

-Aims

Glory

2002-11-20T20:22:59Z

There's one thing about being a hellgod that sets you apart from most humans: the fact that you aren't one! God, I hate this fricken' mortal body! I wish I could rip it to shreds! This Amy Madison person has no sense of style whatsoever. Mind you, I can get along with some mortals, but I had barely even met this one before! Now I have to live in her body?? Totally unfair!

I don't even crave brains! How horrible is that? What am I supposed to eat? Cheese like Rat Amy likes? I don't think so! Cheese gives me gas and a hellgod should NOT have gas! Especially one as nice looking as myself.

Well I've got to go call some people. I had some very important things going on in my life, but I can't do them in this STUPID....MORTAL...BODY!!!!!!

-Glory

Switching bodies??

2002-11-12T00:20:27Z

What the hell??

One minute I'm having lots of fun with my orgasm friend, and the next minute I have another orgasm friend...a different one! And it was Nick, Amy Madison's construction boyfriend. It was the weirdest thing I've ever experienced. I mean, I thought my orgasm friend was good but it's nothing compared to Amy Madison's boyfriend. Maybe being a witch entitles her to really good orgasms. I have no idea.

So anyway, I start screaming because Nick is on top of me! Okay, technically I was on top of him, but I guess we won't get into that right now. He said "What the fuck, Aim?" And I jumped off him and ran right smack into the wall. "Where am I?" I screamed, and tried to get up and run away, but I realized I was naked! And as much as I don't mind being naked, when I looked down I realized that it wasn't me who was naked! I was staring at someone else's naked body!

All of a sudden the light came on and I was staring at a naked Amy Madison boyfriend. I caught movement in a mirror across from me, and I saw a naked Amy Madison! But when I moved, I realized I was the naked Amy Madison! It was so horrifying. I grabbed the sheet off the bed and wrapped it around myself. Then I ran out the door off the bedroom, looking for a phone. I found one in the kitchen. I'd never been to Amy Madison's apartment before. Would've been nice if I at least knew my way around.

I grabbed the phone and immediately dialed Xander's number, totally forgetting that I hate his guts and that we aren't on speaking terms. "Xander!" I screamed. "Who is this?" "It's me, you idiot!" I yelled, and then realized I had Amy Madison's voice. "Amy? It's me, Willow!" I screamed and slammed down the phone. Xander said he was Willow?

What the hell is going on?!?!

+Anyanka+

amy_madison @ 2002-11-09T16:35:00

2002-11-09T21:32:58Z

Lots going on! After Nick and I got back, we found out that Cordy and Groo were engaged! Figures they would wait until we were gone so we couldn't celebrate with them! ;p

Sunday's much better. In fact, she's human now! So that's always good. No more vamp-ness. That's not always good! Haha..

I'm in a random mood. Spent yesterday with Tiana! Yes, that's right, I actually got to spend some time with her!

Okay, well I'm pressed for time! Gotta get going...talk to you all later!

-Aims

LA!!

2002-11-02T21:08:44Z

Interesting how we always need a witch around here! I came up on Thursday because Faith said she needed my help. I performed a spell on Susanna to see if she was under the influence of a spell, or something. What I discovered shocked the hell out of me. And I live on the Hellmouth!

The spell revealed that their was another entity in her, another soul. It was Elena. Now, I'm new to the whole L.A. scene, so I have no idea who she is, or what exactly was going on, but I do know that Ian, Fred's new boy-toy/vampire was in on the whole thing. He's also the guy that's responsible for Fred and Gunn breaking up. I've only met Gunn a few times, but he's a really great guy. I feel bad for him.

Well, Nick came up here with me for the weekend. He's never been to L.A. Thankfully he stayed in the hotel room that we rented the whole time I did the spell. He would have totally wigged if he would have been there. I felt bad, but we have a little free time now.

I also missed seeing Katie in her Halloween costume because I was up here. I feel terrible, but this needed to be done, and I feel much better after having this all behind us. I've spent a little time with Susanna, and she's very grateful for my help, but it's strange that something like this would bring us together.

Oh, well. Guess that's how it goes.

I think Nick and I are gonna go dancing tonight. Faith, Callie, Cordy and Groo might come as well. I've met Lorne a few times, and I'd like Nick to meet him. He's a lot of fun.

Okay! Ciao!

-Aims

Party!

2002-10-28T12:37:27Z

Tara's party was such a blast! I haven't partied like that in a long time, and it felt good. I've been sort of depressed lately. I never see Nick at work and he always seems to be busy on the weekends, so it was nice for the two of us to be able to go to Tara's party together, and just dance away!

I got Tara a magical journal, like the one in the Harry Potter books. Anyone ever read about it? You write all of your private stuff down, and then it dissappears after a few seconds. The only way you can see it after that is if you say the "magic words." Makes sense, right? I thought so! lol! It's a really beautiful journal, and I figure she can't write everything in here, so it might do her some good.

Thank goddess Willow is back. She and I haven't spoken since we did the ritual, because I think she's a little uncomfortable around me. She said some not-so-nice things to me before we helped her back to her old self. Apparently she's still a little weird about the whole Oz thing, and her subconcious (or maybe her concious, I'm not sure) thinks it's my fault...weird.

Anyway, that's all for now. I think I'm going to give Tiana and Riley a call later, see if they're up for a little patrol-a-thon.

Hoping Xander doesn't kill me for being on the computer during work...

2002-10-22T18:50:37Z

I just got off the phone with Tiana, and earlier I talked to Riley. We're going to go out patrolling like old times tonight! I'm excited. Nick really wants to come, but I told him not this time. It's too dangerous, and I have to be more prepared to have him with me, you know? You know.

Patrolling will hopefully take my mind off all the Willow stuff tonight. I just don't know whats going on anymore. We've been researching our brains out and I'm not really sure we've gotten very far. But we have gotten far with Katie. She's amazing! I know I keep talking about this, but it's true!

I ran into Miss Calendar at the Magic Box today. I told her everyone was anxious to hear how their honeymoon was, and she said she'd try to update her journal today. She told me a little bit about it and it sounded great! I wish I had gone to Ireland...but I don't think Nick is ready to make that kind of commitment just yet!

Well, more later. I need to get back to work!

-Aims

Willow...sigh

2002-10-20T14:47:13Z

Tara and I have spent a lot of time alternating between helping Katie, and researching for Willow. Both have left me exhausted! But at least Tara thinks she knows what she's going to do about Willow. She talked to Mr. Giles and he told her about a wiccan's coven in England. She's going to try and contact them. I hope everything works out.

Now...Katie! Wow! I mean, Willow and I had been teaching her spells, and she was doing excellent. But we were just showing her how to float a pencil. Now, she's amazing! She can conjure, and she's learning transmography. It's awesome! Pretty soon she's going to surpass me. And I'm not bragging or anything, but I'm a pretty powerful witch! I'm just afraid she's going to get addicted. I've been there, done that, and it's not pretty.

Just as long as she never finds out about Rack, I say we're safe. I hope Willow doesn't...no, she wouldn't! She promised me she would never go to Rack again. We both promised. If she broke that promise...well, then...there would be hell to pay. And I mean that literally. I don't even know if she'd make it through...

Well, I need to go shower, get dressed, and head over to the Magic Box. We're starting in early today. Well, we're meeting there at noon. Hey! That's early for me. Buffy's on a war-path. I just hope she calms down before she actually gets her hands on Willow again. And I know Xand is ready, willing, and able to do anything that needs to be done.

We just want our Willow back.

amy_madison @ 2002-10-14T08:35:00

2002-10-14T12:34:45Z

I always feel bad for not updating more, but truthfully? I don't have much to say. Everything's going really well for me right now. The job at Nick and Xander's site is great. I feel like one of the guys! They're all really nice, and my boss is always complimenting me. Okay, granted, my boss is Xander, but still! It's nice!

Xand talked to Nick the other day. I read about their conversation, but Nick had already told me about it. I'm so grateful for friends like Xander who are always willing to help out. Nick felt so much better after talking with him, and I was able to tell him everything. He's cool with it. Granted, he wasn't at the beginning, but since he's met everyone and has seen that despite everything else, we're actually pretty normal, he calmed down.

Oh! I'm going to make him update now!

Good times!!

2002-10-08T20:07:04Z

The wedding was so beautiful it made me cry!! Jenny looked so gorgeous in her dress. I took so many pictures I think I may have broken the camera! I was so impressed with everything. The ceremony was so lovely. It was pretty long, but it was so great. They had rituals and lighting of candles, it was so romantic!! I squeezed Nick's hand so tight when they kissed. I loved every second of it! I can't wait until my wedding day! *sings* Dum dum da dum...dum dum da dum...dum dum da dum dum da dum dum da dum...

*giggles*

Anways, after the wedding we all met at Buffy's for an emergency scooby meeting. We discussed the idea of zombies to fake out the vamps, and it was such a great idea! Since Will and Tara were in the wedding party, it would have been hard for them to perform a spell in front of everyone. So during the 2nd wedding, I hid out in the back to perform the spell so no one would see me. Nick stood guard in front of me, so no one would think to mess with him. It worked like a charm and we kicked a lot of ass!

Needless to say, Nick knows everything. I couldn't hide it from him. He was a little...off...for a few days, but he called me back and told me he couldn't live without me and this wouldn't stand in his way. It was the most romantic thing! So we're fine now, and he's really gotten into this whole supernatural thing. He's talked to Xander, and since he's seen that Xander's okay with it, he is too. They talk fighting tactics now! Although not around Buffy and I! *laughs*

Patrolling has ceased, but I called up Tiana and we're going out tomorrow night! She's back in town and we're gonna be better than ever! Riley might come too, but he's not sure yet. Girlfriend/roommate duties. You know the drill.

amy_madison @ 2002-09-30T15:21:00

2002-09-30T19:16:45Z

I just got off the phone with Faith. We had a wicked good little chat! I hadn't talked to her in a while, so it was nice. We talked about the next time we can get together and party it up! She still hasn't met Nick, but I bet she'll like him. Or will she? I don't know. All I know is that I like him, and that's all that matters, right? Anyway, she yelled at me because I never update which is semi-true but hey! Will never updates either. Well she did today but it had been a while. I don't know why Faith posts all the time. She's supposed to be the slacker or something. I don't know...Just kidding! Ya know I love ya, Faith!

Anyway, I read in Anya's journal that she said I quit the Bronze. That is NOT true. I just got another job, and both my boss and I decided it wouldn't work out for me to stay there. It was a mutual thing and we I left on good terms.

Oh! So that brings me to my new job... working with Nick and Xander! Yes that's right! They had a secretarial position that needed to be filled, and it just so happens that I've been taking some classes at UC Sunnydale a few nights a week, and I had just what they were looking for. So now I keep track of the jobs they have, and I have to keep certain paperwork on it. It's not a bad job at all. I even have authorization to accept or refuse jobs! Okay, well I have to run it by Xand first, but still! I started yesterday, and I don't mind it at all. I think it's going to be a good job for me. Oh! And a big plus...lunch with Xand and Nick every day! Yay for Amy!

Happy Aims...

2002-09-24T20:45:52Z

Wow. Happy Amy is just not the word for it! Amy has never been this happy...lol. I realize I'm talking about myself in the third person, but I can't help it. Nicholas has to be the sweetest, most romantic guy...not to mention the HOTTEST. I can't believe he's with me. When I walk down the street I just want to point and scream and go "He's with me!!" It's so great.

Will has been the best friend I could ever ask for. She's been letting me teach Katie all sorts of spells. She can float a feather now! A pencil is too heavy for her, but just give it time and she'll be on her way. I think Tara knows thats what we do, but she chooses not to acknowledge it. If we had her do anything more than float pencils and feathers, I think Tara would rip my head off. So I'm going to steer clear of that...

Nick is here! Oh goddess he's too sweet. He just made me lunch. Sandwhiches and chips! Okay, so he's not a cook. Still! Points awarded for being so cute! You can't ever forget that he's cute.

And Xand? I know I've told you this about 30000 times, but thank you so much for introducing us. This deed will not go un-rewarded! :-)

Love...

2002-09-16T18:59:44Z

The other night the whole gang went to The Bronze. It was so much fun! I actually had a date, and everyone liked him! Of course he already knew Xander, and he had met Willow, so he wasn't totally out of the loop. But he said he likes my friends, and that is one of the most important things to me. We actually managed to lose the hellmouth talk, which was nice for once.

Afterwords, I invited Nicholas back to my place, and we stayed up all night. Talking, Willow. Just to clarify! (She always thinks I sleep around! Willow! Jeez!) I'm a good girl, now. No more bad-Amy, remember?

NSS

2002-09-08T17:41:44Z

Tiana came back! It was only for a short while, but hey! She was here. It was great to patrol like old times, but now it's back to the same old thing. Patrolling by myself once in a while. Gunn went back to L.A. this morning, and Riley's always with Andrea. I patrol with Buffy sometimes but I hate dragging her down. She says I don't but I know I do. I tend to talk too much. Don't believe me? Just give me a call.

In other news, boyfriend-ness is awesome! He's the sweetest guy in the whole world. This isn't just because I haven't had a boyfriend in a while and I'm latching onto him, this is because I really really like him. It's unlike any relationship I've ever had. We're open, and honest. I told him about my practicing wicca, and that there are super-natural forces out there that many people aren't aware of. I haven't told him about Buffy yet, but I've hinted around to it, so I haven't kept any secrets.

He's really into cars, and I'm not at all, but I love listening to him talk about it. He's really into racing them, and he does it mostly Friday nights. I went to one this past Friday, and he won. When he got back, he picked me up and swung me around. It was the cutest thing ever. He calls me 'Baby', just like in the movies. It's only been a week, but it's been the best week of my life. He's had serious commitments before, so I know he isn't scared of one. But he's been hurt in the past. And so have I. So we want to take things slow.

*sigh*

He's just so amazing...

Happy Amy!!

2002-09-01T20:47:36Z

Xander's work friend called me Friday! I was so excited! He asked if I'd like to go out Saturday (last night) and I said I'd love to!

So he picked me up around 7 and we went out for supper at a little Italian restaraunt. He was such a gentlemen! He opened doors for me and pulled out chairs and everything. It was so great. He's really cute! Hopefully I can get a picture to show everyone soon :)

His name is Nicholas and he's so great! We hit it off really well, and I just felt incredibly safe with him. Although, if it came to staking vamps I bet I could show him a thing or two. It sort of sucks being secret identity girl. I feel bad for Buffy, never allowed to have a normal relationship with a normal guy. I'm just a witch. I think over time I could tell him about that, but then how would I bring Buffy and all the super-natural stuff into it? 'Oh, hey, Nicholas. This is my friend Buffy. She slays vampires.' Yeah that would go over real well.

I miss Tiana. She would have been fun to double date with. I called her the other day and we talked about me going up to visit her. It sounds like a good time and I'm excited to see her again!

Well, I've got to go. Nicholas said he'd call me so we could hang out tonight. I think we might go bowling. It will be so cute! :)

sigh

2002-08-26T20:03:26Z

Tonight I'm going to Nathaniel's to watch movies. I've been bored all day, and that will be just what I need to keep my mind off things.

I got this weekend off, and I spent it wallowing in self-pity and eating Ben & Jerry's. Xander's construction friend never called me. Maybe he showed him a picture. Who knows. And now one of the guys I worked with has been added to the list of disappearing people. Has anyone else noticed this? The list is getting longer and longer, and it's been on the news every night that more and more people are gone. It's depressing. Not only do I not have a boyfriend, but people I've gotten to know are disappearing. I mean, how much more depressing can things get?

Disappearing much?

2002-08-19T16:34:42Z

Things have been so slow in Sunnydale. I was almost getting antsy for something to happen...

...until it did.

I was on my way home last night...well actually it was this morning, after working at the Bronze. I took a cab home, and when I got out and went to pay the driver, he was gone. Yes, that's right...gone. As in, not there. Now of course I was totally creeped out. Someone doesn't just dissappear in front of your eyes, well unless it's Sunnydale. So I looked around the car. I know, stupid, right? But I thought maybe he had just gotten out for something. But, no. He wasn't there. There was nothing there. The cab was still running and everything, but there was no driver.

Okay, freaky much? I just called Buffy but she wasn't home. Nobody answered. I figured I'd be nice and wait until morning before I called them, but nobody is home anyway. So I guess I'll just wait until somebody returns my message. Boy, am I totally creeped out.

This better work...

2002-08-17T00:54:03Z

I'm so sick of this shit with Warren. I mean, I realize he can't get a girlfriend, but does he have to go kidnapping girls just to get a date? How pathetic is he?

Poor Hannah. Aura and Dawn are back but she's still out there somewhere. Scared out of her mind. I've been chanting some safety spells for her, but I don't know if they're going to work. Hopefully she finds a little comfort in them.

Heading over to see Will and Tara in a little while. Tara and I both decided that we need to take a step up in the majick department. We need to do some serious spells in order to find out what happened to Hannah. We're going to be delving into some pretty heavy-duty things, so think of us while you're doing whatever you're doing. We're going to need all the support we can get.